What I bought

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goodbye old truck

On my list of most-wanted things, you'll observe that I did not include a new vehicle. But our old vehicle has been dying a protracted and increasingly expensive death, and as much as I would love to be a no-car family, for that to happen our children would have to forego their many activities, and that I would not love. Which is why, with my brand-new financial stability, I've bought a new vehicle. Yes, apparently I have more in common than one might expect with young sports stars who've just signed their first big contract. I rushed right out and bought a truck. Well, more precisely, I secured a loan to buy a truck, but that doesn't sound quite as flashy.

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oil leak

I've been trying to talk myself into appreciating the value of this purchase, which pretty much cancels out my claim to "green dreams." Really, of all the things to buy: a seven-seater SUV (there seemed little point in purchasing a smaller car in which our whole family wouldn't fit). But it comes down to the choice we've already made to live the lifestyle we're already living, so perhaps this is just me coming to terms with reality: I drive a lot. It's almost always to take kids to the locations of their far-flung activities. I've often thought about the luxury of having a vehicle, especially a reliable vehicle, and how not having one would impact participation in any competitive sport, and even in most recreational activities.

I've been thinking a lot about luxuries lately.

The luxury of not worrying about money. The luxury of being able to invest long-term rather than grabbing every short-term opportunity that appears. The luxury of time. The luxury of your mind freed to think about other things. And it's fundamentally not fair, because all of these luxuries, of time and mental space and not constantly weighing necessities, give you additional advantages, privileges that aren't so obvious, and that are easily taken for granted.

I don't think these are subjects I'm very comfortable talking about.

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here's what I bought

I'm not entirely comfortable being a car-owner, either, but that doesn't change the facts. Kevin just went and picked it up. It's basically a newer, shinier version of our other vehicle. Our first big trip in it is going to be just the two of us: next week he's chauffering me to Toronto where I'm meeting with my agent, and having lunch with my Canadian publisher, who has invited my Canadian editor, my Dutch publisher, and my US editor, the latter two in town for IFOA. That'll be a tableful of smart interesting women. And maybe by then I'll have stopped navel-gazing and returned to appreciating: I drive so my kids can swim and play soccer. They're fortunate and so am I, in this equation.

And now, a pot of lentil soup simmering on the stove, wet snow falling (it's only October 24th!), and class prep nearly done. No complaints.

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mirror, mirror

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